* Please note this is a vent... Please also note that this vent does not include my gorgeous BB friends who are pregnant - you are all being so kind to me... Love you all...*

Dear pregnant friends,

Do you not realise how lucky you are??? Do you not understand that there are so many people who are desperate to be where you are? To feel a baby kicking them? To watch their belly grow? To hear that precious heart beat? To see a waving hand on an ultrasound screen?

I can't listen to you. I'm sorry. I want to sympathise but I just can't. You don't know why I can't - I am sorry that I am not willing to share with you... but listening to you whinge about being pregnant is ripping me to shreds.

Maybe one day I will tell you what has happened to me over the last few months. Probably, I won't. You don't need to hear about my pain. But you need to be happy that you are growing a new life inside you and experiencing something that I am desperately trying to achieve.

Especially you, E. You are due one week before when I would have been due. You don't know that... I'm sorry... but I am finding it hard enough to deal with your growing belly, without hearing you complain about how much you hate being pregnant, how you "should have hired a surrogate" and how you are "never doing this again".

I'm sure once your newborn bub is in your arms, I will be my normal self. I will love him or her and I will cherish any cuddles I am able to steal. But until then, I'm sorry, I can't listen to you. At this point, I don't even think I can be around you.

Love
OP